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Hello semue!!hehe..lme x mngupdate blog ak nieh..hehe..musti polik awat ak happy sgt nie kn?..of course la ak happy..raya kn.. :) nmpk x betapa lama nye ak x mngupdate blog nie?..busy xda masa la..hahaha..alasan je tu..

alhamdullilah semue memory/kenangan lama yg buat ak nangis ak da pdm suku drinya..hehehe..termasuklah memory bersama encik shazwan. ak skrg da bole fully time dia as kwn. sebab..ak ad owg bwu yg syg ak..hehehe.. :) and yg pling penting ak nk try love myself first than i start to love other person. However, ak rasa la kn..bukan senang la ak nk time owg baru tu..bab ak x ready g tok love things segala bagai nie..ak cdg nk btulkn blik niat ak. blaja betul2.. berjaya, bwk mak bapak ak g haji.happykn dowg dulu pastu dlm masa yg sama try baiki diri ak yg x seberapa nie b4 ke level hidup yg seterusnya. InsyaAllah ak cuba. :)

Yes, IM A BAD PERSON.

YES, I ADMIT THAT I AM A BAD PERSON,
I  AM LYING EVERYDAY,
I AM FAKING EVERYDAY,
I AM HURTING EVERYDAY,
I AM FULL OF JEALOUSLY,
YES I AM BAD PERSON.

BUT....
I AM BAD FOR SOME REASONS..

LISTEN..LISTEN TO ME..
YES I AM LYING..
LYING TO MY HEART THAT I NEVER LOVE YOU..NEVER..
EVEN I DO LOVE YOU..

YES I AM FAKING..
I AM FAKING TO EVERYBODY THAT I HATE YOU..
IN REALITY, NEVER HATE YOU..NEVER..

YES I AM HURTING..
I AM KEPT HURTING YOU AND MYSELF TOO..
EVERY TIME YOU  SPOKE TO ME,
EVERY TIME YOU BE NICE WITH ME,
EVERY TIME YOU SMILE TO ME,
I REPLAY WITH A HARSH ACT AND WORDS TO YOU..
I FELT VERY BAD BY DOING THESE TOWARDS YOU..

YES I AM JEALOUS,
I SUPPRESS AND KEPT HOLD MY JEALOUSLY,
WHEN OTHER GIRLS WITH YOU,
WHEN YOU SMILE WITH OTHER GIRLS,
WHEN YOU HANG OUT WITH OTHER GIRLS..
SOMETIMES MY KILLER INSTINCT JUST WAKE UP..
BUT THEN IT DIES WHEN "THAT" COME CROSS MY MIND..



I AM SORRY..TRULY  SORRY...
OF COWARDLY ME..

{THAT}
THE GIRLS WHO WEAK WHEN IT COME TO LOVE..
A GIRLS WHO HAVE A TRUST ISSUES WHEN IT COMES TO MEN AND LOVE..
A GIRLS WHO BADLY HURTS OF LOVE HISTORY..
A GIRLS WHO HATE HOPES WHEN IT COMES OF LOVE..

I AM SORRY..

pandemonium

LiFe of Adolescence isn't easy at aLL!!  







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adakala kita dipuncak kejayaan,
tersenyum girang,
adakala kita tersandung dek kegagalan,
menangis kesesalan.